"I was depressed, presumably because I rarely left the house, spent quite a lot of time in bed, read the same book over and over, ate infrequently, and devoted quite a bit of my abundant free time to thinking about death." 

I can relate to this quote, because I usually do this a lot. I never go anywhere, because I'm afraid of being killed or arrested. I eat infrequently, because either I'm reading or under stress. I sometimes over think things such as death or maybe even the most simplest things. I was told that "normal" teenagers don't usually engage in this behavior. I'm not a normal teenager or at least I don't think I am. I don't think I'm what you call "normal", because I don't live up to the stereotypical form of a teenager. Like Hazel, even though I'm not living with a disease, I think about death a lot. Death isn't something that kills the person, but rather a fear that kills many people. I think about death, because it's really the only bad thing I experienced majority of in the past few months. Death to me would be an unwanted friend. The difference between me and Hazel is that I have plenty of chances to be "normal", but I choose not to. My mom forces me to go outside or be social. Nothing good ever comes out of that. I end up feeling depressed, because I feel that I don't fit in with everyone else. Depression to me isn't something that rises from loneliness, but rather feeling unwanted with lack of social development. I feel this way, because I'm different. I live my own life the way that I believe will best suit me. Life isn't easy being a teen. Your always struggling with school, jobs, maybe even relationships. The fact of the matter is that your forced to grow up. I stay to myself to focus on that transition. No I'm not perfect, but that's a number one reason for why I focus on me. Outside people cause conflict and have affects on people. I understand that developing social skills is important, but it can also make my depression worst.